My Saturn Return

If I could have preemptively prepared myself for what my Saturn return would be like, I would say that it is truly the story of the Princess Diaries.

You’re going about your newfound adolescence, and you get called to something much bigger than where you were before. It’s your birthright, Princess Mia! Aaaaaaand you can’t say no because you’re the only one who can do this job. Yes, you. But before you do, you need to pursue the deep transformation to get from the “before Pablo,” to the “after Pablo” picture. Mia needed teachers, and lessons to take her from school girl to Coronation Day. Some of these lessons, she’s better at. Others, not. Learning how to walk in heels HURTS!

But one thing’s for sure. The moment Mia dropped all of her tactics and resistance, and the more fun she tried to have along the way, the better her story was. And how she rose to a life far better than that dumb ass Chad Michael Murray who could never see her for who she was. My Saturn return was regular lessons with our Great Teacher, shaping me to become the person who has the capacity to hold that big of a blessing. 

My Saturn return took place in my 10th house, in Pisces. The realm of career and public image, and the lesson of where and how I create boundaries. I spent my early life pleasing my way through the world, and it worked exceptionally well for me. I spent my entire life acutely anticipating other people’s needs, and deliver far beyond expectations. That approach is highly favorable in this world, and I built a lot of success in my life through that lens. I would flex into other’s needs instead of holding my own, and my Saturn return showed me the mental, emotional, and physical consequence to learn this lesson. What I learned, over and over and over again, is that I can serve no one when I neglect to serve myself. Serving myself in this time meant dropping my severe attachment to my career, and becoming available to a higher calling.

I was really insistent on being a Product Marketer. It makes sense looking back at it know. My job was the take the raw information and convert it into a valuable message. It makes sense that I channel messages, I had made a profession from doing that in B2B SaaS. I’m a Product Marketer by blood, I see the value in everything and I like talking about it. These are gifts that have such bigger potential beyond cloud migrations and data integrations, and that was a fearful truth to accept. It was all I knew, but it was the trust fall I needed to drop into. With every passing day, I’m learning that these gifts and abilities are meant for more, that I, am meant for more.

I am so thankful for my Saturn Return, as traumatizing as it was at times. While I am still very much on my way, I have the clarity of trust within myself, the process, and my intuition. For now I know, my soul had a dream, and that dream is my life. What a gift.